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Friday, February 15, 2013

New Beginnings

I went back and forth (then back and forth again) on whether or not to start a new blog.  As many of you know, I have had two blogs in the past: one I began when I started my seminary internship, the other was used to document my unique jaw problems.  While both are still valuable blogs and I could easily continue to update them, I feel it is time to begin anew.  There are so many changes happening and honestly, I have changed a lot in the last couple years.  It is time for a new beginning, starting with this blog.

While it has been on my heart for many years, there are only a handful of people who know I am about to begin the adoption process.  Some may believe this is inappropriate for a single pastor, as parenting should be done with two parents.  I do not plan to engage in a debate regarding this, as debates are not something often worthwhile when it comes to someones personal decision.  I will comment that I do believe in two-parent households and would love this for my children.  However, I know without a doubt God has called me to parent in this unique way.  I'm not a fan of marrying for the purpose of procreation.  It is more important that I marry for love so that my children do not fall victim to a bitter divorce.  So, while I could wait to parent until after I marry, this is not the journey for me.  It is evident, without a shadow of a doubt, God is calling me to do things a bit backwards; I couldn't be happier with God's decision.

Alright, I guess I am getting a little ahead of myself.  Technically, I will not begin the adoption process until I first have a new call as pastor.  I have taken the last 2.5 years off from ordained ministry to recover physically from a wide array of health concerns.  I completed surgeries 7 and 8 while also receiving a "tentative" diagnosis of fibromyalgia.  I say my fibromyalgia diagnosis is "tentative" because the physician who diagnosed me would like me to see a rheumatologist to rule out other diseases.  If nothing else comes up positive, we will know for certain the diagnosis was correct.  I look forward to having this done soon.

Currently, I have three potential parish calls in the beginning stages of the interview process.  The call process can take anywhere from 3-6 months, sometimes longer.  It can be grueling at times to say the least, as it doesn't always feel fast enough and can be painful when one doesn't work out.  There is a lot invested in each interview and your heart can grow attached to the congregations you interview with.  I'm excited though, and long to have a new church to call home.

So, this is my new beginning.  An opportunity to look forward with joy and anticipation for all God has in store.  There are so many incredible things I know are ahead; I can't wait to get started.  Until then, I will enjoy each and every moment living with my family: my dad, stepmother, sister, 2 y/o niece, our three dogs and my sweet kitty.  It is a home that is full; not much space but a lot of love.  I'm in a very good place, which is evidenced by this:

Doesn't get much better, does it?  All I can say is i'm praying God doesn't call me too far away.  Please Lord, let my call be a driveable distance away from this sweet baby girl niece?!